Friday, September 11, 2009

Day 39: Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Just work today. I'm glad I was able to make it to work on time without having to spend $10 on a dang cab! LoL! It's a shame that it takes me 90 minutes to get to work via the trains/bus, but the actual time spent on the Marta is only about 30 minutes. The other 60 is spent waiting for my connecting trains/bus. Total whackness.

After work I went to the GSU library and worked on my resume/cover letter for Poston Communications, LLC. It's a Public Relations/Communications firm located in our building at work. I typed everything up, emailed it to the company, and printed copies to turn in to them in person tomorrow. Hopefully this will turn into something great!

Day 38: Monday, September 7, 2009

So today is Labor Day, and I elected to come into work for a few hours to get some mulah. Nothing else really happened today. I got my little 3 hours in and called it a day. Of course no company was open, so I just spent 3 hours at work on Google researching/looking up direct dials for contacts online for our database. It was me, my iPod, and maybe 3 other people, including my supervisor Billy. Other than that, today wasn't that exciting. But I can't wait to drive Goldie!!!

Day 37: Sunday, September 6, 2009

So my mommy brought down my Kia!!! YAY!!!! It's actually not that bad. No, it's not what I was promised by my sperm donor (aka, my "dad"), but eh. What can ya do? But the Kia is not as bad as I thought it might be. I can see myself riding around town in it for a few months. Hopefully, something will happen soon enough to where I can get a newer car, but for now, it's me and Goldie ALL THE WAY!!!

And it was so good to see my mom again too, as well as her friend and her friend's boyfriend. I haven't seen them since Christmas. My mom had in her braids, which I HATE. She wears them every daggone summer, and every summer, I BEG her to take them out, lol! But summer wouldn't be summer without my momma's braids! Lol!

After they left, me and a couple of friend's went to Piedmont Park for Pride. According to another friend, there was a free BBQ, and with time's being as hard as they are, I was down for some free grub. So me, Shari, and Z went out to the park, where I was sexually harassed by these overly crunk dudes that apparently tried to grab at me. I ignored them as best I could and kept walking along. However, Z and Shari thought the entire incident was hilarious. Smh (Shaking My Head).

Then, immediately after that, I see this HUGE mass of people ahead of us start to RUN towards us! It was CRAZY.

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Day 36: Saturday, September 5, 2009

My mom was supposed to drive from Virginia with her friend to drop off the Kia today. I stayed home all day and called her AT LEAST 20 times to reach her to get an ETA. I stayed home, with no food (I was gonna go to the store, but didn't want to miss her), only to reach her friend's cell at 8 pm. Apparently, the decided not to come until tomorrow (Sunday) instead, and neglected to call me...Whackness...

*Sigh* Another broke day in the hizzood.

Day 35, Friday, September 4, 2009

Today was day two as a Confirmer at The List. Man, I don't like this job...at all. I just feel like such a lame for being back here again. I did decide to take a tour of the building we're housed in though. It's filled with various communications, technology, and design firms (small businesses). I figure at the very least I can possibly find an internship or something with one of them. I need to branch out and do something else. I can't see myself working part-time and living off $10 per hour at 20 hours per week for a whole year before Grad School. Nope. Can't see it at all...Please God, don't let that be the case (the PT job part, not the Grad School part! I wanna go to school!). At least this weekend is Labor Day, and my momma is supposed to bring Goldie, a 2001 Kia Rio (stick shift) this weekend.

My momma bought the car off of a co-worker for dirt cheap. Ironically, my mom got offended when I asked her about the condition of the car. Then she tried to throw up the loan she took out for me to go to Morehouse (I ended up transferring to Georgia State), as if one thing somehow had something to do with the other. Initially, it used to break my heart whenever she would do that. Now, I just sort of fade out of the conversation and think of other things. It's not because I don't respect her or anything like that, but I swear. That damn loan is like the splinters of the cross. It's EVERYWHERE. So at this point, whenever she brings it up, it has no effect...at all. Hey, I went to college, my mom took out a loan, and it didn't work out. But, at least I graduated, which was the end goal, right? So hey, I'm happy. And hopefully one day, I will be in a position to repay my mother's generosity. Maybe then she can stop bringing it up, lol!

Oh, and this weekend is Black Pride weekend here in Atlanta. I will be in the house! Lol, too many crowds. Plus, my broke behind can't even afford two packs of Kool-Aid, much less anything else! Lol!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Day 34, Thursday September 3, 2009

So today was my first day back as a Confirmer at The List, Inc......again. I worked here, in the EXACT SAME POSITION two years ago before I started at GA State. I'm on the same bus line, at the same job, making the same $10 per hour at 20 hours per week, and I'm back to using Lucille, the same Toshiba laptop I had since 2005. Hmm.....All this hard work for this degree, just to end up back....here......*sigh*.....But at least it's a check. But when is it going to stop being "at least a check?"

Day 33, Wednesday September 2, 2009

Had my interview with Med Easy, a company based in Atlanta today. The interview went GREAT! I'm so excited about it. The downside is that the owner won't make his decision until after he gets back from vacation on September 15! Whackness! But, I guess good things come to those who wait, right?

Oh, and I had another interview for this website position today as well (via phone). The company is based in San Francisco, and pays $500 a month to edit some of their posts here on the East Coast from 8-10 am each morning. It would be great pocket change/savings money. I hope/pray I get it. 3 part-time jobs...? Hmmm...Can you say, "The Come Up!?!?!?""

Day 32 -- Tuesday September 1

It's the start of a new month. Hopefully things will be on the upswing. I have a telephone interview with this medical billing company tomorrow (Wednesday). I hope I get the position. The job would be a really nice supplement to The List, which I start back again on Thursday (smh).

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Days 1-30: August 1-31, 2009

On Friday, August 1, 2009, I became an esteemed alumnus of Georgia State University. A few weeks after that, I decided that I should write a blog about my first 100 days after graduation, much in the same vein as my friend/roomate/brother-for-life Michael J. Brewer. It wasn't until a few weeks after that (i.e., now) that I actually got off my depressed and lazy duff to actually sit down, collect my thoughts, and put them together on this page in front of me. So, it is because of that procrastination that days 1-30 are going to be in one post, which day one having it's own special "Preamble" posting.

But why have I been feeling so lazy and lethargic you ask? Simple. Life after college hasn't been all that it was cracked up to be. To put things into perspective though, I'll have to go back a few months.

On October 31 I was laid off from my 18 month job as a temp worker at the Coca-Cola Call Center. I worked with this real ghetto/janky Temp Agency called Corporate Temps. I applied for Unemployment Insurance and was approved, but Corporate Temps appealed and won, causing me to lose my UI. I appealed that decision and subsequently lost that one too. Luckily for me though, momma didn't raise no fool and I had about 4 months of savings stored away. Just when my money was running low, I finally found a Part-Time job that would work around my hectic school schedule. It was for a website called The Kidz Connexion, where I was hired as a Content Manager. The owner informed me that I would be paid weekly at a rate of $11 per hour for 20-30 hours per week. In September, the job was to go Full-Time with a salary and benefits. It looked like I had landed a great gig and had narrowly averted joining the growing list of new unemployed graduates by securing a fantastic post-college job. I learned of the position from the Georgia State University Career Center website, and asked one of the job counselors there about it. He assured me that all jobs are verified by the center before posting.

Kids post journalistic articles on the website, and it was my job to edit them, in addition to various research, public relations and marketing, and other random tasks as assigned by the website owner/creator and her adult son. After she pushed back my start date twice, I began to get to work. A month later, I had been paid for only one week. I called and emailed repeatedly about my being paid, but the owner stopped answering all communication and has seemingly dropped off the face of the earth.

After informing the Career Center about the debacle, I got another job with an Atlanta politician's campaign. Ironically, I got that job via the Career Center website as well, and was assured by the Center that lighting wouldn't strike me twice. Ironically, the job with the candidate was supposed to pay $600 per week starting last week in July/first week of August. Once again, I have yet to be paid...

So essentially, I was supposed to have two separate jobs that were supposed to provide me with a post-graduate position/pay, and both have fallen through. Thankfully, my folks have been helping me out and I've been on Food Stamps (EBT) since June. Without that, I wouldn't be able to eat. On top of that, The Georgia Department of Labor is trying to force me to pay back the almost $4,000 in Unemployment benefits I received. I'm still fighting for a waiver, but so far, they think that me paying back the money would not be a financial burden to me...I think there is some corruption/unethical practices going on over there, but I digress.

So, the first 30 days after graduating on August was filled with a mad search for paying work. I've scoured various newspaper classified, monster.com, hotjobs.com, and even the GSU Panther Career Net (again). I've even scoured Craigslist. However, I've stopped going to the popular classified listing site because I've discovered that most job postings that seem legit on Craigslist end up being total scams and/or multi-level marketing timewasters. For instance, I've applied to Administrative Assistant jobs on Craigslist that pay reasonably well ($12-18 per hour depending on the posting). But when I email my resume, I end up with automated responses from automated emails, claiming the owner lives out of the country in places like Estonia, and/or to send money to certain address to pay for the background check, or shipping materials, or whatever.

One day, I finally got a call back from an actual company in Atlanta called Extreme, Inc., who wanted to interview me for an Account Manager position. The Craigslist posting seemed legitimate, and the salaried position paid between $32,000-$35,000 a year. Excited, I set up an interview time, only to discover via a google search of the company that they sell an AT&T phone package door-to-door, and that the "salaried" position was actually commission. As I vented my frustration on Facebook and Twitter, some of my friends informed me that they too had fallen victim to Extreme, Inc.'s false advertising in the recent years, and that one of them even did the door-to-door selling for about a week before calling it quits.

So, after weeks of job searching, running out of money, and getting chewed out by my credit card company for non-payment, I began getting more and more depressed. To add insult to injury, my father decided that I wasn't worth keeping his promises to. In January, he had promised to buy me a brand new (not used) car and pay my insurance for the first six months as a graduation gift.

Instead, he opted to buy HIMSELF a brand new Ford F-150 while still keeping his Volvo, which is paid in full. In July he called me to tell me he was going to test-driving a 1993 Toyota Corolla that ran apparently ran well, despite having racked up 151,ooo miles. Oh, and it had a new paint job...as if that made it a stellar buy. Needless to say, I didn't accept that offer and our already rocky and tumultuous relationship (if you can even call it that) has been DOA ever since.

So, even though I am the only one so far to graduate college, I am the only one still catching the bus. Of course both my parents drive (and they've worked hard for what they have). My father bought my younger brother a car when he moved in with him (as a means to buy his love after years of abandonment, neglect, and physical abuse no doubt) and paid his insurance every month, and helped my step-sister (who was addicted to drugs/alcohol, and still may be) get 3 cars and paid her insurance. Why 3 you ask? Oh, she crashed all of them, the last one while driving drunk on the Freeway. She's 19. But what do I get? Another monthly Marta train/bus pass.

In August, my mother tried to buy her friend/co-worker's government vehicle (they both work for the Federal Department of Justice). It was a 2000 Ford Explorer in excellent condition with only 32,000 miles on it. It was a steal. Unfortunately, my mom (who was going to borrow some of the funds from my dad apparently) lost the week-long online auction.

So needless to say, being on Food Stamps (again), jobless, broke, and without a car has left me feeling incredibly depressed and like a loser. I worked so hard to graduate, only to end up with less money and resources than when I transferred to Georgia State in January 2008. I alson need/want new clothes, new shoes, a car, better food, new...EVERYTHING. One of my good black boots literally broke apart one day while out with a couple of friends, and I have no real professional clothes anymore. Not to mention, most of my summer stuff is either old, tattered, or stained (as I've had them for YEARS).

I feel as if I am so much further behind everyone else, including the new batch of Freshman that have moved into the city/schools this year. It's ironic that I wasn't before, but now I am embarrassed and ashamed every time I walk down the street with sweat dripping from my face and soaking through my shirt as a car full of 18-year-olds speed past me. Also, I've been so sad and forlorn since graduation that I haven't had the motivation to actually get up and write for my Georgia State TV show "Transferred" during the little free time I've had when not job hunting.

I've also neglected my duties as Life Section Editor for YBE Magazine (Young Black Experience), aka www.YBEmagazine.com. In fact, I was supposed to write an article about the difficulties today's newest college graduates face as they enter today's unstable job market. However, I've been in too much of a funk about my own circumstances to want to actually put my dark thoughts on paper. Ironically, that is something my roomate MJB told me was the reason he stopped writing in his First 100 Days blog (he graduated from Morehouse in May).

But that's all changing. As a matter-of-fact, being broke, bored, and sad is why I am here writing my first blog entries. So, in that sense, maybe it's a good thing. And on the bright side, I started a Part-Time job this week as a Confirmer at The List, Inc., which is a Market Research firm in Atlanta. It pays $10 an hour, at 20 hours per week. Ironically, it's the same job I worked at before I started at Georgia State. But hopefully, it will only last a very short while, and it will keep me from having to move back with my momma in Virginia. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother with all of my heart, but when you finally graduate college, you want to move into your space, not back home.

Also, my mother has bought me a 2001 Kia Rio to get me around town until I somehow can get a better car. Hopefully, it will last a while and won't need any repairs. I'm nervous about the car because it has 162,000 miles on it. But hey, it's the best my mother can do at the moment. This just means that I will have to get my own car, which is fine.

I'm not usually one to purposely depend on others for things I want/need anyway, which is why the past few months have really been a downer for me. But like I said, things are looking up. A car, a part-time job and possibly another one, and great friends are giving me a brighter outlook on my post-graduate life. I've also FINALLY started this damn blog and will finally MAKE time to write the final episodes for "Transferred" for GSTV. I also hope to gather the money to take a GRE Prep course before taking the exam. I'm hoping to get into Grad School next fall. So, here's hoping the next 30 days get even better. Now back to my Saturday night anime on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim. "Big O" is on...

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Graduation Day (Day 1: A Preamble)

On Friday, August 1, 2009, I walked out of my final presentation for my internship course at Georgia State University. But this wasn't just the end to another grueling college course. It was the final class and last Final of my undergraduate career. I left the 10th floor room of the One Park Place building on Georgia State's downtown Atlanta main campus, reorganized my books and papers before going down the elevator to the first floor, and then casually walked outside into the hot Georgia Summer sun a college graduate. Of course, it wasn't official yet, as professors had a few weeks to get grades together and to have them input into the system, but for all purposes, I had finished.

It was an ending to an incredibly hectic day. Due to my own procrastination, I had stayed up all night long working on my final presentation and still hadn't finished. So, I went to the campus library an hour before class to wrap up everything and print out the term papers I had written for the final project on my summer internship with MF'Ntertainment (http://www.myspace.com/gaimezworld). I was late to class, but I managed to give a killer presentation none-the-less.

I had some last minute business to take care of, so I didn't leave campus immediately. I basked in the summer sun as I walked back towards the GSU Student Recreation Center on the other side of campus. I let it wrap all around me like a damn Snuggie as I made my way through Downtown Atlanta, passing citizens and GSU students alike as I meandered down the street, towards General Classroom Building (GCB), into the main library quad, past the University Center, and then finally to the Rec Center.

That's one thing about the GSU campus. It's in the heart of Downtown Atlanta, and while there is a campus epicenter which houses an assortment of buildings like General Classroom Building, Sparks Hall, and the Library, the majority of the campus is actually spread out over downtown. For Instance, the One Park Place building is across the street from a convenient store, shoe repair, and a non-campus bookstore on one side, and across from urban clothing and electronics stores, and pawn and barber shops another side. It is because of this intermingling of GSU and non-GSU buildings that helps make the GSU campus so uniquely different from other four-year institutions. While you can usually figure out who the students are roaming downtown streets, sometimes you can't.

Anyway, so I went to Rec Center to clean out my locker and to clear up an erroneous charge on my account for returning a rented towel 5 minutes before the Center closed one day. And from there, I walked through campus to the Five Points train station to go home, instead of just hopping on the train at the GSU station up the road. I made sure to take a long look around as I walked through the same way I came. This was no longer my school. In just one day, it had become my alma mater. Funny how that happens.